Saturday, January 31, 2009
With a mind of hope and resilience
With the undying heart of steel
With the humility and determination of humanity
Out to journey with their mind set to a goal
As obstacles lay ahead
They resist the engulfment of fear
Challenged and fallen they may have
Not in the least bit downtrodden they are
For their unity and believe in each other has saved them from peril
And they shall shine like stars forever
We started nothing. 11:35 PM
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Blogskin changed!
Should i change to live journal/wordpress?
And i hate cbox so much, everytime i attempt to go edit my tagboard colors the color palette(dunno what that thing is called lar) simply either disappear or just momentarily stay there and disappear after the page loads.So fustrating.Fabrick seems to offer nice clothings.
We started nothing. 10:09 PM
Friday, December 26, 2008
Oh you noe what i was out the whole day away from home and yes getting some freaking fresh air. Oh try staying at home rotting off on Christmas day when almost everyone is having their family gathering. Trying to get ppl to go out yesterday was so not an easy task. And i would not have been doing this so so tiring job if Dom had not pestered me to invite ppl out. Yes i so love slacking. Dun assign me such job when contacting ppl is so so hard. Call them a thousand and either they call 2hrs ltr or they dun even call back, how sweet. Yes i went Queensway Shopping centre becos i was told to. Actually i wasnt willing to go ,but what the heck even i go i wun die do there so just followed Dom. Haha and i ate Macs again im going to get fat.... And i managed to get a shirt yes a shirt for like $18?? The shirt was discounted off 50% what a so great deal. I love Queensway shopping centre, can get such great deals. And we were also browsing through Jerseys. One thing the shirts are nice but the price is exorbitant. Dom wanted to get a shirt for himself also, so we browsed through the shops. But i think like after 1/2 hr we were still looking for a decent shirt? Wah i think we already combed the whole shopping centre until my legs were like seng. Oh after a considerably long time Dom managed to get the T-shirt he was eyeing on for a long long time. And i so wanted to get out of the shopping centre so we can head for Orchard and meet Brian there. took bus 14 there. Ok arnd 15 mins ltr we were so almost there. One stop away and we were at the junction. And Dom bet that the bus will reach the stop at arnd 10 secs. His estimation was so far off. We took erh i think 7 mins to get to the bus stop from the junction. The bus was like inching and inching every minute to the bus stop becos there was a massive jam. Well thanks to the heavy traffic we arrived ltr than Brian. We then headed to Far East to some hobby shop and i was browsing airline models. And im so wanting to get the Air France Concorde which cost a price of $200. Yes nice plane model comes with a very nice price tag. Ah heck and we just went off walking aimlessly arnd the so crowded Orchard. Walk until my legs become so tired, needed a rest. Oh and dinner time arrived and im the only one who had my dinner outside how nice. Ate wanton noodle at lucky plaza, very nice to eat very satisfying got free macs coke also leftover by dom. Eating with ppl looking at me gives me a very akward feeling. Ah dun care. Yes nice day today quite shiok.
We started nothing. 10:00 PM
Saturday, November 8, 2008
After attending the lasallian encounter, it really gave me a much more clearer image of what is vocation... Vocation seems more abstract where it's meaning differs through individuals. It does not seem to have a definite definition... And vocation is definitely not confined to just joining the priesthood, or even joining an order. Vocation can appeal to a much more wider variety of ways to express it ; getting married and loving your family and the people outside your family can also be considered a vocation. So you can see it as being subjective...Well i have been asked what do you define as vocation... At this moment i dun have a clear definition of my own , but i think that vocation means that our greatest joy in our precious life intersects with the greatest needs of people in the world and then these two will then form a straight path to the better of humanity. Well at this moment , we are all still young and have yet to discover many things in this splendidful world and we definitely need to gather experience to really realise our true calling in life by God. So we definitely need to reflect on it, to give it much deeper thoughts and to also let chains of thoughts of such to question our mind...Sometimes, there may be some doubts in us but this will definitely strengthen our faith...God has already designated a path for us and whats our calling in life....What we need to do now is to really let ourself grow up daily and the challenge ahead is whether we realise our calling in life by God...
We started nothing. 8:35 PM
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Today during school i was quite moody...I was sort of pms...I seriously dunno y...Sometimes i just dunno y it just happens...theres seems to be hatred and anger seeding in my heart...And also a sense of no belonging...I seem so lost and afraid...And i have no clue where my heart really belongs to...I have doubts about myself...I have no self-esteem...I have no confidence in myself...And im really really afraid i will fail and then just drop flat...But with such a mindset going on in my mind i just cannot seem to get things right and i will definitely not succeed...this year was a much fruitful endeavour...With so many new and exciting encounters...But i feel i have been hit hard...Sometimes i have no clue about why my personality have changed for the worse....And definitely i have disappointed plentiful of ppl out there....I dunno what to do...I seriously dunno what i should do.....
We started nothing. 8:48 PM
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Yesterday during band had class with Mr Chua...Actually this session with him was quite shiok especially when it came to the percussion solo...Had my FAVOURITE timpani solo! I think this is my first time i really play my solo until so hardcore...Im very happies in fact...Quite farnee... Seriously i was playing like a madman... Anw i was very very satisfied with my performance today...I should give myself a high fives! Goodie Job Drum section haha... You noe i was actually playing in front of the woodwind section which was inside the music room...So i supposed i was receiving stares when i was doing my solo...kINDA embarrassing becos they think im nuts in the mind...Erh maybe my whacking was abit overboard becos kinda look farnee and corny....
We started nothing. 12:54 AM
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Ah Ben came to my hse again to play his all time favourite "splinter cell"... Crap after Ben played one of my guitar i realised the 4th string was of the wrong type , aiya so need to take a trip down to yamaha to bring strings...crap it...Anw one of my guitar can be already labelled as a piece of contraption because the back cracked open so probably getting a new acoustic guitar soon...Maybe one of those with the amplifier plug? Then can use amplifier and play electric guitar haha quite fun.... Anw band today was quite hysterical...Three of the bandsmen were so called punished then were made of a mockery... Apparently, they gave a timing which sounded like some freaking distorted voice, it really sounded like Mr Bombastic...Yep the mocking was so bad that i couldnt stop laughing.. Because it was so hilarious..infact too hilarious... Maybe laughing at them was kinda of a bad thing because they were being mocked like crap...But it is just a sheer harmless act of entertainment...Treat it as my daily dosage of laughter... Anw everyone gets made fun of once in a while so doesnt really matter unless it gets overboard then that would be a different scenerio.... Erh after band went to bukit timah I.R.C and played lan for around 3hrs...And i freaking hell hated this trip to lan because it was a waste of time and money playing with sore losers who constantly team up to gang against others... Sometimes i really that they are going too extreme... Its like they team up to kill others and win just for their own pleasure..Then for the rest of us?Sit there and see ourself getting crapped up by them and then waste your money seeing yourself losing to a bunch of craps who do not play proper....Such places and activities really bring out the bad side of yourself..To manipulate ppl..To freaking hell scold each other for not playing properly.....And really use a handful of crude words which is not kinda pleasant to hear... This really just turns each of our friendship sour... not really good for your own spiritual well being also....And they just love to aggravate the situation by just continuing being such as asshole and are just oblivious to the ppl around them.... Next i should not go to LAN... Just waste your time and money and also does not good to any of us but just make us more hated by each other... Luckily i not so as crazy and hardcore as them about DOTA....Sometimes i just know that some things cannot be forced and go my way but sometimes its just too hard to really just forget about it,theres been this matter which have been etched in my mind and i really just cannot get rid of it....I just feel that its been embedded into my mind and heart already...And everytime i just i feel it....I seriously dun noe how to approach this matter and i really just hope i have a way....Maybe one day it may just come naturally....
We started nothing. 6:34 PM
